3/12/2005
My Father leaves the Planet
Hello everyone, it has been a full time leading up to Christmas and the holiday season.
My Father Paul Sydney Swain made his transition back to the eternal reality on the 29 November 2005. 36 hours after his 75th birthday.
He had been suffering complications of lymphatic cancer and was in Melbourne having more radiation treatment in a private hospital, that said that they could extend his life. They didn't listen to his souls wanting to go home. Even he didn't accept that he wanted to leave for the most part. But it was always evident to me that his time here had come to an end for now. He had achieved all that he wanted in this physical life and felt content to reach for a different type of existence. One that would not include the pain and confusion he was experiencing at the end of his days while he was coping with his illness.
It was a wonderful experience, all his children flew down to Melbourne to say good bye, something he really appreciated. He waited for us. When we arrived he was still sitting up talking, although having difficulty breathing, an Oxygen machine was pumping air into his lungs. He thanked us all for being there to say goodbye and see him off on his next adventure. And while there were seven very sad faces surrounding his bed looking on in bewilderment, he said." come on who is going to sing? Someone sing a song". He was joyous, I think relieved he had finally made up his mind he was going home. Or at least trying to lighten the mood. He spoke his words of peace looking back on how he had tried to include and look after all of us in the only way he knew how. Then started to apologise for giving us pain at certain times in his life. So I replied, " well you could call it pain or you could call it variety, which is always great!"
He told us to leave after not too long as he was tied and waved goodbye with a twinkle in his eye. It was about 11pm at night. His vital signs ceased at around 4.40am the next morning. But I think he left as soon as he went to sleep, which was just after we left.
When I think of him now I see a smiling face very content and joyous surrounded by golden light. He said all he had to say, he has no regrets (as he did in life) and is now happy to be apart of our lives with renewed vigour and confidence that all is well.
The word that comes to mind when I try to describe my feeling of him now, is
" Radiance."
It is a bitter sweet time for his family and friends. His wife Veronica Swain, my step-Mother and Dad's third wife, is devastated at the loss of her lover, companion, father of her three daughters and confidant. She is now looking to build a new life without him and not sure, at this stage, how she is going to do that. I know all will be revealed soon and a rich full life lies ahead for us all and for Veronica when her grieving is done and when she will allow it. But the knowing that he is no longer in Physical pain and has merged back into Pure Positive energy is a wondrous thought and feeling.
Dad's funeral is on Wednesday 7 December 2005 at St Marks church Darling Point Sydney at noon. We will all go back to his home to celebrate his life after he is cremated.
I will always be eternally grateful for all that he gave to me, the good times and the bad. It is those trying times that had me reach for understanding, compassion and acceptance of the differences we all experience in this profound time space reality. It is what made me and why I love life so much today. He leaves here to continue reaching for more exciting physical adventures seven children, Paul, KAren, Peter, Sinclair, Alicia, Christiane, Catriona, and four Grandchildren, Anika, Olivia, Julliette and Thomas.
Love is all
KAren Swain...