" I am a nice person, I love others and want to help, I have been good. Why is this pain, sickness, sadness, bad situations or lack of what I have asked for, still happening to me?"
It is happening to you because you keep focusing on it. In your well meaning efforts to heal yourself and the circumstances of your life. You have beat the drum of what you do not want, and as you focus on what is not wanted you have activated this vibration within your vibrational signal, and the Universe is bringing more of that to you. Why it happened in the first place is because you got out of alignment with Well Being. For whatever reason it does NOT matter, you did not listen to your emotional guidance system and you indulged in thoughts that did not feel good. If it is still happening to you now it is because you keep thinking about it in your efforts to rid yourself of it and to heal. As you think about what is wrong with yourself and your life you expand on that energy and attract more of it to you..
It is NOT because you have a lesson to learn, or because you are a bad person, or not worthy enough, strong enough, good looking enough, or care enough. Or because you are not good enough or you do not deserve to have what you want. Or because your childhood was bad, or your parents abandoned you and life is not fair. Or because the planets are not in a good position and the timing is not right. Or because the Angels didn't hear you, or you can't see or hear your guides. Or the Universe doesn't love you, and there is a malevolent force that is out to get you. Or because you are not enlightened enough, intelligent enough, smart enough, pretty enough. Or because you do not know enough information or enough healing tools in order to heal it, or because you haven't found the one who will heal it for you, bring it to you or take it away for you. Or you haven't enough strategy in order to fix it .
Enough is Enough!!!
You are an extension of that which is Source Energy or God.
YOU are Enough!
It is very simple. Focus on it and you will have more of it. Focus on the lack of it and you will see lack. Think about and focus on what Feels better, now you have changed your point of attraction, and the universe will bring you a different result. Beat the drum of what is wanted and why. Let yourself OFF the hook. Look at what is good in your life and how you have achieved vibrational alignment with Well Being, had good times and received many blessings. Focus on what Feels good, have fun, play, enjoy, remember, rest and relax. Now you are in a powerful place of allowing the Universe to answer all your prayers. Getting what you want or Healing is all about allowing Well Being to flow...
Don't make too much of it.