I started trying to get answers from spirit about 3 years ago, through clairvoyants, psychics and reading everything I could. Lot of truth in everything but nothing has changed. I am told that my constant battling against the flow of life is keeping what I want from my life, but I can’t help fighting because I so desperately need my life to change.
One of the biggest changes I want is in my work. I have a yearning for a particular job role and was told that I would have the job, and a project. I tried to use the LOA and on three occasions these things manifested, and God decided to give them to someone else. The thing is, what I asked for was specialist and not something that others would just have a passion for as well, so I can’t help wondering that the manifestation of exactly what I asked for and seeing it being given to someone else, was not a message from God / spirit.
Working in the job I asked for is my passion. I have so much to give and want to inspire and nurture and lead others. I am not a bad person and despite smoking and pretty much spending the majority of my time in despair, I know I have great skills and gifts to offer and do not hate my self.
Anyway, I have been told that I cannot have what I want because I have to put love of self above things external to me. I have to love my self more than the things I have in my life and the things I have asked for, otherwise they will always be kept from me. I can understand that on some level that what I am being told is that my wanting of these things is so great that the energy becomes too tense and doesn’t flow. But I also think what I am being told is that nothing will manifest for me until my joy is so overwhelming from within that I don’t care whether I have these things or not.
I have been told that I have been splitting the energy by always visualizing what I want and never being present and that I have not been visualizing in the now so everything will always remain in the future. I am also told that it is not happening for me because I have not made it clear, but I can’t really visualize what I want with any great clarity and further, because I have tried to see certain people there working alongside me that it is being manipulative. However, bit hard to visualize faceless people. I have also asked to be more CONFIDENT but be buggered if I know how to get into vibrational alignment with that?
I just do not know how to turn things around. I battle to have any liking for my current job role. I have been with the same company for 20 years and a year and a half ago was given an office role, despite having previously led large work teams, and am essentially isolated from everyone doing menial tasks and unable to live for my passion. I have no respect for the job, which is seen as menial and certainly cannot be passionate about it, which is killing me.
For the life of me I don’t know how to turn things around because my current job has nothing redeeming about it and I cannot see being released from this and given the job I want. I have asked and no one wants to either let me move or help me move. Also, I can’t see how I will get the job I want when the job/s and project have been given to someone else. I have a passion for the specialist work I want but cannot see how it can come to me for many years, if at all now, and cannot live with this current reality. It is a bit confusing because we are told we can be, have and do anything we want, but when there is only the one job / project, clearly you can't? Anyway, without dreams that can be fulfilled, I am stuck with what is (resistant to what is), and being stuck with what is, is a death sentence.
Where I am at the moment is that a write down what I want, try and visualise, and get happy about it. Then I remember that I can’t have it because of all the above things – ie: I am not currently happy (appreciating) in the job I have now; I am seeking joy from things external to me; I am not picturing as now (how the hell you can picture as now is beyond me); I am not remaining present; I am fighting against the flow and now allowing the energy to work; I am too attached to what I want and so it is being repelled and ends up as lack thinking, and everything collapses for me again and I am become more depressed over my current job and it is a huge battle to get back up feeling something like happiness again.
So, with regards to all that above, I’m not sure really what to ask as I have become a bit lost in it. So perhaps the two big ones for me are:
How do I not let the joy of what I am asking for not create the desperation in me that ends up in repelling what I want? I find it really hard to get happy in my current reality and the thrill and joy of what I am asking for is so good, that I become anxious and push it away. If my life wasn’t so crap now it would be easy to let go and stay present and enjoying what I have, but it is such a contrast with what I have that it falls over when I come back to reality.Thanks Andy
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thank you for your guidance purchase and your powerful questions.
I really feel the passion and powerful desire you have to help others, live a life of connection, fulfilment and to release yourself from the mental torture you have (up until now) been suffering. I think your plight is not unique amounts Healers and Powerful teacher and I would love to put your questions on the web site so others may benefit, if this is OK with you?
The first question I would like to address is;
but I can’t help fighting because I so desperately need my life to change.
This is a very powerful statement and I can feel the NEED you have to want to change yourself and how you feel about life and the power you have to turn your life around. The very statement you have sent has revealed the reason you (up until NOW) have not seen what you are looking for, it is in your words and the feeling of Fighting and NEED.
Being a lover not a fighter, has so much more power. Love lets huge amounts of source energy flow and manifestation is very rapid in a energy of Love compared to hate, I will explain this in more detail later...
When you need something you are sending out a signal, with your powerful vibrations, of Lack of what you are asking for. You have been vibrating the absence of it, you are making a statement to the universe "I DO NOT HAVE THIS" and the universe, thought the LOA, is matching your statement and what you BELIEVE to be true with what is showing up in your life.
Neediness will never attract to you what you want, neediness will only attract more of the same, but when you perceive you need something, you become very clear about what it IS that you DO want. You have now become very clear about what you want and how you want to feel when you get it, by the absence of it. You have decided how you want to feel.
So I want you to feel the gratitude and appreciation for the need you have felt, because this neediness has defined what it is you are looking for in life.
You said others have told you to be very clear about what it is you want, and we would say to you that you do NOT need to be clear in a particular or visualisation scene. You do not need to clearly visualise every step of the way. Like the people and the places or where it is or how it will unfold. In fact this will inhibit your journey toward getting what you want. What you DO need to be clear about is how you want to FEEL when you get what you are looking for. Because this is the vibration you want to indulge in to attract to you what you want.
And Andy I think you are very clear about this. You have written this to me very precisely how you want to feel.
Working in the job I asked for is my passion.
I have so much to give and want to inspire and nurture and lead others
How do I not let the joy of what I am asking for
So you want to feel happy, feel joyous, be inspiring and passionate.
This is ALL you need to know when wanting to manifest your future, because the universe knows very clearly who you are and what makes you happy, joyous and passionate. The universe has got your order and IS in the process of bringing a life that will thrill you, with all the things you like, to you RIGHT NOW.
IT IS all on its way to you, in fact it is already here and waiting for you to get in sync with it. Everything you have asked of life is waiting for you to let in.
The universe or GOD knows exactly what you want. You have been placing your order with the universe for some time now, you DO NOT need to tell GOD over and over again. The universe or God is VERY cleaver and not at all deaf. Every time you call out to God " GOD, THIS IS WHAT I WANT !' It is like saying. "GOD are you deaf, can't you hear me, are you stupid or something?"
Kind of like putting an order in at a restaurant, and when the meal does not turn up in a minute or two , you go into the kitchen to check to see if the chef has it. "Do you have my order"? you ask him. "Yes I have your order" he says. Then when another few minutes go by and you go in again and again and ask him. Every time you do this, you make it a longer wait to get your order.
Andy, GOD is not deaf, in fact God is responding back to you.
"Andy, I have your delivery right outside your front door. it is all pilling up out here, you keep asking and I keep delivering. But Andy in order that you receive it you have to open the door!"
So what you are actually asking me Andy is " How do I open the door?"
And the way to open the door is to first MAKE PEACE WITH YOUR LIFE AS IT IS RIGHT NOW!
It looks like this to me Andy.
Here you are in your house, (or life) running around fretting, worrying, getting frustrated, angry and overwhelmed with the circumstances you are living. Looking to psychics and others to help you change your life, tell you what to do, help you fix it and tell you how to manifest what you want, meanwhile God has the life you have asked for and all the stuff you like pilling up outside your door, while you try to clean your house. Get rid of all your negative stuff, clear your mind and visualise more of what you want.
And then one day, maybe TODAY. You STOP trying to get it all right. You stop trying to make it all happen. YOU GIVE UP! And say to yourself.
"STUFF IT! I can't make this happen. I can not fix it any more. Instead of trying to fix myself and my life I am going to do something I like. I am going to go for a nice walk, go sailing, go out dancing or to a fun park, get out there and enjoy my life and not try to get what I want anymore. I am just going to HAVE FUN!"
And BANG! you walk out your front door and there is all the stuff you have been asking GOD for!
You do not have to work so hard Andy to get what you want.You only have to enjoy your life, because when you are having a great time you are a vibrational match to all the orders you have placed with the universe. I know there are things you like to do that you can do right now. Things that turn you on, that light you up. You do not have to have that perfect job or that perfect partner to feel good. You could read a great book, go to an uplifting movie, pat the cat, have a fabulous conversation with someone. Send some jokes to people through email. Help a little old lady cross the road, tell someone you LOVE them. Buy a gift for someone special, give some money to an underprivileged person. Tell your boss how great they are. Smile at someone and make their day, a stranger in the street. Tell someone how cleaver they are at their job. Help someone understand something better. Teach your wisdom to someone who is confused!
LET the UNIVERSE handle the details and stop trying to make it happen with your visualisations. You do not need to know HOW it is all going to unfold. ALL you NEED to know is THAT IT WILL, and enjoy your life...
I know you feel in order to get what you want you have to work hard at it, think about it constantly, even work hard at feeling good.
But Andy if you have to work hard at feeling good you are not feeling good you are pretending to feel good and this feeling never lasts and you will slip back down to those negative thoughts again very quickly. Working hard at anything never feels good because it is unnatural to work hard. The universe does not work hard to manifest all the beauty you see in the world.
As a race we have been told repeatedly to WORK HARD then you will achieve. But this is a very misleading statement. Feeling good should be effortless and FUN!
When we say "focus on what you want in order to manifest it, not on what you have."
This means FOCUS ON THE FEELINGS YOU WANT. NOT ON THE FEELINGS YOU HAVE.
You CAN Evoke these good feelings right here right now..... go on Andy do it! NOW. ..... What makes you feel good or better when you think about it? Then think about it NOW.... It does not have to be about your future, it could be something that thrilled you in your past, or a funny joke, or the thought; "the universe adores me and IS giving me everything I want, all I have to do is relax and let it in"
If thinking about getting what you want distresses you. don't think about it .
"I write down what I want, try and visualise, and get happy about it. Then I remember that I can’t have it because of all the above things "
What we think is happening to you here is; you are busy trying to figure out HOW and Why you are going to get it, and you can't figure it out. And Andy this is not your job. The HOWS are the domain of the universe and GOD. Why is it going to come to you? Because this is the way the universe is set up. You have come here to this physical environment to experience your genius creative abilities. Getting what you want is meant to happen and discovering how you do this is all about energy alignment. This is what you have come here to remember in this life time. You have come to experience the power of your thoughts. You have an eternity to play with this knowledge Andy, an eternity to get it right, so relax you will.
When you were choosing this particular life experience you had a powerful desire to know and live connected to the power of your thoughts Andy. Everything you have lived has been the perfect platform for you to know and experience this. Without all the doubt and despair, the desire to know the power of your thoughts and to ask questions and seek answers and live connected to this knowing would not have been born in you. You said, when you came here, that you wanted to know what is like to live a life connected to source, to live remembering your God energy, to remind others how to reconnect and to teach through the power of your example. This was the desire in you at your birth and the universe has set up your life perfctly, so you can experiance this.
Your mantra could be, " My dominant moment to moment intent is to feel connected to my source energy and remember who I really am. When I feel good I am feeling my connection." Not feeling so good is pinching off my connection, feeling better is more connection. "
Let go of thinking about how to get what you want and instead make your life about your connection to your source energy or God presence or Soul.
Let your life be a powerful example of connected living .
The next thing I want to address is;
How do I not let the joy of what I am asking for not create the desperation in me that ends up in repelling what I want?
" I battle to have any liking for my current job role."
STOP FIGHTING and start relaxing. This is the way to open the door so God can give you what you want.
With your current job, stop fighting it, find the things you like about it and focus on these. There are people there you like, there is much benefit to your job, it pays you money, it gives you a reason to get out of bed in the mornings. There are heaps of people who would love to have your job and your life style, think of all the unemployed who are desperate to have any job. In Twenty years you have mastered a lot about what you do and you have created a portfolio of security. You have stuck it out for this long and other employers will like this quality in you very much. You also know you have the tenacity to hang in there and get the job done.
have no respect for the job, which is seen as menial and certainly cannot be passionate about it, which is killing me. I cannot live with this current reality
GET INSPIRED about it. Your job is not Killing you. YOU are killing you by the way you feel about your job. God has not punished you by giving a job you want to someone else. The only reason you did not get the job is because you were NOT a vibrational match to it at that time. You THINK this particular job will be the answers to all your woes, but it is just a job and the person who got it thought. "This could be a good thing to do." they did not make it the reason for their existence and their happiness as you do. You want the job because you want to feel good, you want to feel passion. You ARE MEANT to have what you want Andy, but you have to help the universe give it to you by being a match to it...
but when there is only the one job / project, clearly you can't? Anyway, without dreams that can be fulfilled, I am stuck with what is (resistant to what is), and being stuck with what is, is a death sentence.
Feeling like you are living a death sentence is not what you are asking God for. You didn't say "Please GOD bring me a job that feels like a death sentence" You said,
" Please God bring me a job I can feel passionate about"
To Be a vibrational match to this is to find passion in your life and work now. You want to do this, not to get that particular job, but because you want to feel good and have a great life. And this is not dependant on this particular job as you think it is. When you start to feel appreciation for the work you currently have you can attract an even better job, with more money, nicer people, more rewarding challengers, a job beyond your wildest dreams. Many people have done this though letting go of demanding how it should be and wanting it to be a certain way, and instead enjoying what is.
Oprah Winfrey did this, and look at the powerful contribution she makes in the lives of many with her job. When she was younger and wanted a particular job so badly, She had to let go of the thought, "IF I don't get this job I think I will die," and instead she choose to think, " NO I can go on with out it, I can have a great life with out it. I CAN BE HAPPY anyway!"
God, the universe has this all sorted out for you. You do not need to know all these details. God know what you like. The Only thing God asked of you is to open the door to the bounty of the universe...
You can do this by Looking at how you DO help others in your current position, and if you do not help others, start to be more helpful, because one of the things you said you wanted was to help and inspire others, so start to do that in the current job you have. It is the perfect platform for you to be he person you said you want to be. MAKE PEACE with your working environment. You can not inspire people by hating your job. This is NOT inspiring...
This IS the way to open the door Andy...You will see, when you become the person you say you want to be in you current environment, the circumstances you are looking for WILL turn up , because you will be a vibrational match to them.
But I also think what I am being told is that nothing will manifest for me until my joy is so overwhelming from within that I don’t care whether I have these things or not.
Your Joy does NOT have to be overwhelming for things to change in your life. Let me explain this in more detail.
When you think in a way that feels good, that good feeling is an indication that you are allowing life force energy or source energy to flow. The better you feel the more power and energy you have flowing into your life and body.
So when you have dominant thoughts that do not feel good, frustrating thoughts like eg: "HOW HOW HOW can I get what I want?"
I just do not know how to turn things around
Then I remember that I can’t have it because of all the above things – ie: I am not currently happy (appreciating) in the job I have now; I am seeking joy from things external to me; I am not picturing as now (how the hell you can picture as now is beyond me); I am not remaining present; I am fighting against the flow and now allowing the energy to work; I am too attached to what I want and so it is being repelled and ends up as lack thinking, and everything collapses for me again and I am become more depressed over my current job and it is a huge battle to get back up feeling something like happiness again.
The power in these thought is not so great, because they do NOT FEEL GOOD you can feel the amount of source energy you are allowing to flow into your life, not so much. The negative feeling is the resistance you have to the flow of life and because of this lack of energy within the thought, the manifestation of them takes a LOT longer than a positive or good feeling thought. The better a thought feels, the more power to manifest it has...
All you have to do Andy is to feel a little better about your current circumstances and you will dramatically change your life.
So get angry at the unfairness of it all, then get frustrated, then doubt, then get exhausted, forget about trying to make it all work and give up completely, then get a little hopeful that you can enjoy yourself regardless of having the partner, job, house of your dreams. And as you feel these ever improving thoughts you will dramatically change your circumstances.
You could be 1% more positive then you are right now and your circumstances will change. If you were 2% more positive right now, your circumstances would change dramatically. Imagine if you were 50% more certain and positive you are getting what you want, how completely different your life would look. It does not take a lot of effort to change your world, in fact only a small amount of focusing effort on your part will do this.
If you were someone that lived in despair most of the time, and you turned this despair to anger, your life would improve because anger FEELS better then despair. Think about how un-energised you feel when you are despairing compared to being angry. Don't you feel more energy flowing in a place of anger? We are not suggesting you stay in anger for very long or even take ANY ACTION from this emotional place, as you will only attract more things to be angry about. But don't beat yourself up for getting angry because often this is your effort to move UP the emotional scale and to feel better. Just make sure you keep moving up.... finding better and better feeling thoughts, like frustration, and hope. This is the way to feeling good.
ALL your emotions are telling you Andy, is how much energy you are allowing to flow in your life. Your emotions are your feedback system letting you know where you are in any given moment. Stop beating up on yourself for feeling bad, instead remind yourself that God is talking to you about what you are doing with your thoughts. And when you feel a very negative thought and you feel really bad, remind yourself you CAN change this very easily.
You can not feel gratitude, JOY ecstatic bliss from a place of despair Andy. There is to much vibrational difference between them. When you feel despairing it is almost impossible to feel grateful. Gratitude can be found from a place of hope, not anger, but anger is on its way to hope. Jumping from despair to Ecstatic Bliss is like asking you to jump over the grand canon. Take one step at a time and you will get there, we guarantee it.
Remember to treat yourself gently, pat yourself on the back when you reach anger, then tell yourself how great you are doing when you reach hope. Then crack open the bubbly when you find believing and have a party and celebrate when happiness reaches you.
Imagine if you felt hope most of the time instead of despair how different your life would look. A lot of people on this planet get what they want living in a place of hope most of the time, but they could have so much more if they turned hope into believing, and live an EXTRAORDINARY EXISTENCE if they turned believing into knowing. Hope still holds resistance Andy, but in those moments of enjoying your life, like having fun with your friends and dropping the hope for a while, you are opening the door to receive your wishes. And people who live in hope let themselves enjoy life more than people who live in Despair.
You are a very powerful manifested and a genius creator. Not every one in the world is writing to me on this subject, not everyone wants to know how to live a connected life, so the very fact that you have taken the time to understand this more fully, you are manifesting what you want right now Andy. You are moving up the emotional scale to be a vibrational match to all your desires and a wonderful example of living connected to your source.
Congratulations Andy you have it.....Love is you, Your Genius self, the universe...
